ive heard stories, haunting ones, about spoilt brats who were never happy with what they have. i hope im not sounding like a spoilt brat myself. coz im still looking for the happiness that i have never felt before. not that im not happy with what i have. i am, alhamdullillah. just that, im still waiting for this void to be filled, thats all.

insya allah, one day.

pihak administrasi telah menetapkan sebuah syarikat internship yang bukan diantara pilihan saya. kami telah diberi sebanyak dua pilihan. tetapi apa gunanya pilihan-pilihan itu jika kedua-dua nya tidak dipertikaikan? kesudahannya, saya diberi sebuah syarikat bukan pilihan saya pulak. adakah ini bermakna tidak ramai yang memilih syarikat ini? adakah syarikat ini hanya belen-belen daripada yang lain?

yang geramnya kan kawan-kawan, apabila saya menghadiri temuduga dengan syarikat itu, tidak seorang pun daripada mereka yang terpilih untuk ke temuduga ini berbangsa chinoneh. lingkungan pekerjaan di syarikat ini amat senang sekali, jauh lebih senang daripada lingkungan pekerjaan di mediacorp. adakah ini suatu petanda bahawa mereka berpendapat bangsa kami tidak selayak dan tidak setaraf kebolehan kami, dibandingkan dengan bangsa chinoneh?

walauweh... %#@!&*!!

i would love to go for a play, or musical, or a gig even, instead of just movies. for saking sake, i just want to do something different other than slackjacking at home or town. travelling has been costly. commuting is sooooo troublesome. and ive got work to do. lots and lots of work to do

i would love to contact friends, long lost, for a simple dinner. but my mind would prematurely sabotage the good will. it would feel too awkward after a long time not seeing each other and we wont have that many things to talk about anyway, rite. aaaaaand, im sure they would think im some wierdo who wants to extort something good out of them having been long gone and then suddenly just pop out of nowhere.

i would love to for once, celebrate a good 25 with more than 4 people. coz the last birthday i ever remembered celebrating with a lot of people was when i was a kid, no kidding. eh then again, birthdays are for kids! (ok, at this point, it just sank in that im gonna be frikkin two-enty-five years very old)

i would love to tell some people, ok, one person, some things that i have been keeping at the tip of my tongue in a very long time already. jangan buat aku marah, people! i mean.. jangan buat aku marah, you! one person!

from my sugar daddy...

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww......

dear dzul,

i spent the savings on these. i have added short and very reasonable notes to explain why i bought them. 12 items from body shop is not too much... urm.... rite?

2 bottles of tea tree & lemon oil invigorating body wash

a must to wake me up every morning. you know im very liat in the mornings rite. they were selling these at 2 bottles for 14 dols. apa lagi!

bergamot body wash

bergamot body lotion

to help me sleep better at night. you know i have trouble sleeping at night rite. then if i cant sleep i will call you and kacau u.. u dont want that raaaaaite....

coconut bath and shower cream

i dunno why i got this. maybe for some shower variations. i just tried it, actually. felt like i was bathing in santan and was humourously reminded of the desert, badak berendam. hurhurhur... mama loves it so im giving it to her

cassis rose body lotion

my everyday lotion. floral and sweet but subtle, like me (horh!).

spa wisdom on a high hydrating puree

another too cheap to resist/worth it buy. smells very deliciousssss and funnn. have intended to keep this for bad mornings when i need a perk-me-up.

aloe vera gentle freshener

for after lecture hours. need i come up with a more reasonable excuse?

refreshing foot spray

smelly feet after work. wat?? dont believe??! come lah i let you smell.....

papaya body butter

satsuma body butter

ok, ooops... these 2 i just cannot resist!!

of a man eau de toilette

for you, my man, who else. (happy tak?)

love,

your very happy bodyshop shopper

the latest edition of harry potter and the deathly hallows would be out soon, so i cant wait for that. not surprising huh. i am yet to get my hands on the third book of the travelling pants series. theres four in the series but ive only managed to read the first two. but thats only coz i still have not seen the other 2 books in any bookstores yet. and then theres my next favourite, the david pelzer series, author of a child called it, the lost boy and a man named dave. my dan brown collection is almost complete, less the last edition, deception point.

anyway yesterday, i bought myself the first book of the shopaholic series by sophie kinsella! please be excited for me even though im like so backdated coz im! very! ecstatic!

bought new bedroom slippers for mama and myself too. nice, fluffy, white and embroidered bedroom slippers. coming from someone very hard to please, (read: mother),  im glad she said she loved it, thank goodness. caught 3 movies in 2 days, a terrible case of bayar balik geram. 2 of them were being paid for so its not so bad. i did pay for the snacks though.

ok this was today's lunch.

home made chapatti, beef kheema, vege kheema and cucumber and onion raita.

will put the recipe later lah horrr coz right now, i have to attempt the impossible. i have to finish up the last 3 uber thick chapters of constrained and unconstrained optimisation, plus tutorials.

but like they say, got car can travel

apalagi kan!

zoomed down to nearby ikea

finally got to eat that salmon steak thingy

and the server gladly condescended to our request of eating on plastic plates

awesome...

we went to the adjacent giant after lunch

it looks exactly like the one in jb

only that the prices there are waaaaay better

coz of that price factor, decided to go to....

tebrau city!!!!!!!!!!!!

2 bags, dunno how many tshirts, a few tops, 3 sandals, a new wallet

and foooooooooood

i swear if i was willing to tekan the minyak a little bit harder

we would end up in kl

haha.. well... it beats spending the saturday indoors rite

in ntu, i was called the diva for my perpetual late comings for lectures, tutorials, lunch.. everything. and as if in foresight, we knew something famous was going to come out of the name diva dilla. see. we were right. i have a novel now =) i have not read it yet, due to a lack of interest on my part coz its written in malay. i take double the time understanding anything in malay sey. but u can directly link to this site to find out more.

now, this is what i have been looking forward to.

its yasmin ahmad's latest. for the less informed, shes the mastermind behind sepet and ghubra. so im expecting the same heartwarming irony and witty dialog as in her last 2 works

orked: abah, mana mama?

orked's father: tadi abah nampak mama kat luar, bogel, tengah skipping....

hahahaha! lepak! kan!

Cada vez que yo me voy llevo a un lado de mi piel
Tus fotografías para verlas cada vez
Que tu ausencia me devora entero el corazón
Y yo no tengo remedio más que amarte

Y en la distancia te puedo ver
Cuando tus fotos me siento a ver
Y en las estrellas tus ojos ver
Cuando tus fotos me siento a ver
Cada vez que te busco te vas
Y cada vez que te llamo no estás
Es por eso que debo decir que tú sólo en mis fotos estás

Cuando hay un abismo desnudo
Que se opone entre los dos
Yo me valgo del recuerdo Taciturno de tu voz
Y de nuevo siento enfermo este corazón
Que no le queda remedio más que amarte


Y en la distancia te puedo ver
Cuando tus fotos me siento a ver
Y en las estrellas tus ojos ver
Cuando tus fotos me siento a ver
Cada vez que te busco te vas
Y cada vez que te llamo no estás
Es por eso que debo decir que tú sólo en mis fotos estás

Spaghetti

Olive Oil

Chopped Garlic

Mixed herbs - parsley, rosemary, basil, marjoram, thyme and coriander

Dried Shitake

Prawns

Chili flakes

Parmesan flakes

once again, sedaaaaaaaaaaaaaaap!